Auditions kind of suck though.
I know, I haven't been blogging over the past couple of days. Sorry.. life kinda got crazy there a little bit, but have no fear. I will bring you completely up to date in subsequent posts. However, I'm going to talk about th is audition I have coming up this evening. Boy am I getting nervous!
I can sing. Who knew right? I mean, I know I'm fabulously good looking (waits for the snickers to die down a bit), witty and talented with some turns of phrases, and can make a kick ass margarita... but I can also sing. I mean, just how much more can one woman do right? Well, I can't cook so that helps balance things out a bit. I've been singing just about as long as I've been alive. Church choirs, back when I used to go to church and all, school chorus, back when I used to go to school, and all sorts of other random things up to and including karaoke. It tooks me years to finally come to the realization that I'm actually kind of good at it. That, and a whole bunch of my friends repeating it over and over again... while I was drunk, but that's another story.
It's been so long though since I've been to an audition that I have to admit that I'm a fair bit terrified. I mean, in the end, I realize that I'm only auditioning for a small community based a capella choir, so if I get rejected, big deal. It's not the end of the world and it doesn't mean that I am a terrible singer. It just means I didn't mesh for some reason or another. However I don't see that happening. I spent four terribly long years in the honors a capella choir back in high school.
I think that I'm just afraid that what passed for talent back in my old hometown isn't going to be good enough here. Either that, or I'm afraid that my friends have been lying to me all this time. I know if I keep thinking about it I'm going to end up blowing this audition, and that will just end up creating a self-fulfilling prophecy of failure the next time I think about auditioning for something else. I guess it's just disenheartening that the last two audtitions I went on ended up with me being flat-out rejected rather early on in the process. I just have to remember that everyone gets rejected and just hope this is the time that I don't.
Break a leg!